okay. i just want to release some things..i cant cry it all out coz my parents aren't used to see me crying and im sure that they'd be curious when they see me sad and crying here at home..tuwing gabi ko lang naiiiyak lahat toh pero hindi parin sobra kasi nga baka mahuli nila ako..so i decided to make this blog kahit na medyo nahihiya talaga ako maglabas pero ito nalang talaga ung naisip ko para atleast, marelease ko yung mga problema..
so first..super disappointed ako sa sarili ko..it was my chance to be able to help my parents sa financial problems..pero yun nga, hindi ako nakapasa sa UPm..now they're enrolling me to DLSU kung saan napakamahal ng tuition..kung pinasa ko lang sana yung sa UP, edi wala nang problem financially..sobrang nahihirapan na dad ko magproduce ng money tapos first week of May ang enrollment ko, tapos brother ko naman enrollment sa may20 sa CSB..about 100,000++ na agad yun in one month palang tapos baon pa namin..nakakainis..hindi ko alam kung pano makakatulong..
second, nagkasakit yung tita ko..their family isnt that wealthy so they're getting help from relatives..my other tita who stays with my sick tita called the house about a week ago..yun nga, they're asking some help from us..my dad just told them na we cant give much but of course, we will give kung ano yung makakayanan namin..nagulat nalang ako nung parang nag iba na yung face ng dad ko..yun pala my tita got mad at him, bakit daw hindi namin magawang tumulong..tumulong naman kami ah..bat ganun? bat galit parin sila? tsaka kami din naman hindi na namin alam kung saan kukuha ng gagastusin araw araw..hindi maganda takbo ng negosyo namin..namomroblema na nga kami financially, nagkasamaan pa ng loob dad ko at tita ko..nakakainis lang na lahat lahat ng pinagmumulan ng problema ay pera..ang pangit lang tignan na yun yung sumisira sa mga relationships..
third, my lolo (tito of my dad) just died..i dont know how to react..
burial is on saturday but my dad still wants me to join sab's celebration..so yun, i'll be with my friends on saturday and sunday..i hope that id be able to enjoy those 2days..kahit 2 days lang away from all of these problems..
i just dont know why all of these things are happening to my family..hindi ko alam kung pano ihandle lahat..parang ayoko na mag college..parang ayoko na gumastos para sa kahit ano..its so hard for me to accept everything..i dont know what to do..i dont know how to act..arghhh..
i just hope that things will be better right away..sana masolve na lahat ng dapat isolve..
please pray for me and for my family..it would be of great help..ssshhhhh nalang about this ok??? thanks..
i miss all of my friends..what a summer..=(
awww tin!! :( :( i feel the same way about college. lalo pa akong nadisappoint nung hindi ako pwede sa scholarship. pero think of it this way, worth it naman lahat ng gastos nila. at hindi sila naooblige lang na gumastos para sayo, ginagawa nila yun kasi mahal ka nila dahil anak ka nila. actually ako rin ayoko na magcollege kasi hindi na namin kaya. omigad kung alam mo lang! (well alam mo naman yan) pero kailangan eh. para sa atin din to. make your parents proud na lang pag college ka na :)
ReplyDeleteang labo naman nung sa tita mo.. eh hello.. lahat tayo may problema :( sana maintindihan din nila..
condolences sa family >:D<
i love you and i miss you! pagsubok lang yan ni God, alam kong makakayanan mo yan. :)
tin. i know how it feels. i, too, am going through the same and maybe we can help by doing our best in school and hopefully return everything to our parents when we are successful. we cant do much now but we will when its our turn to take care of them. dont worry. this is life, kaya mo yan. im sorry to hear about your lolo. be strong! God will be with you and your family always. hang in there! dont be defeated! :) *HUG*
ReplyDeletehayyyy tin tin...kaya yan. Kami rin ganyan. My lola's in the hospital, and my cousin doesn't have any money to pay her tuition...I'm feeling guilty nga that I'm going to spend this money for myself. Pero I know you guys need the vacation, not only from the city, but from all the problems in the world. Let's make this a good one. Minsan minsan lang ito nangyayari!
ReplyDeleteThanks really for coming. Big sacrifice ito due to your lolo...condolence pla.
I love you!:D
tin tin :( punta na lang ako dyan para turuan mo ko magbike at tatawa na lang ulit ako ng tatawa haha deh joke :D
ReplyDeletehaay apply ka na lang ng scholarship sa taft? malay mo, God always has plans for you. so baka nilagay ka niya sa taft for a reason. siguro galingan mo na lang sa college :D
at yang tita mo talaga, sana nagpasalamat na lang siya. buti nga tumulong pa kayo. pero siguro nahihirapan na rin siya sa gastusin. baka nastress lang siya masyado or something.
haay nako. bakit ba kasi may pera pa sa mundo. dapat wala na lang. haha :p
paliligayahin ka namin sa sabado! huwag kang mag-alala :D love you tin! kung kailangan mo ng makakausap, alam mo naman ang no. sa bahay hehe *big big BIG huuuuug*
ay dapat pala hindi ko hiniram yun book mo hahaha kasi kailangan mo yun ngayon :D anyway.. :D kaya mo yan! ikaw pa! basta andito lang kami para sayo :D
tama tama! matalino ka naman eh, merit scholar sa taft. Ask bro ceci for recommendations. Kaya yan!
ReplyDeleteAALIWIN KITA =))
ReplyDeletetin dont be sad na..dont worry ill pray for you. we friends of yours are always here for you!
ReplyDeletehay naku d ko maintindhan yang tita mo ha..ang labo. parang sya pa ung may ganang magalit eh if she knows u also have your own problems din..
just pray that everythng will be ok..i know it will! :) dont worry..basta andto lang ako tin..txt ka lang or whatever. Love you tin! mwah! :)
hey bigbutt :) i dont wanna say na "i know how it feels" because i really dont (except for the money problems, thats another thing) and we all have different obstacles to face in our lives. It just differs for each one us. May it be financial, the loss of someone, the anguish of rejection or family problems, it all happens to us.
ReplyDeleteDon't worry, God didn't create us empty handed in times like these. Just pray a lot, (we'll pray for you too), accept these problems, find possible ways to lighten the burden a bit, talk to friends, vent out like this, and did i mention listen to gay language? CHUVA! hahaha.
and hey, we're always here for you. as a representative of the CHUVA WAY, we're behind you 101%! and NEVER EVER think of entrance exams as a way to judge your intelligence, personality and potential because it's just a piece of paper with dots. Thats all there is to entrance tests =))
everything happens for a reason. walls were not meant to shut out problems. one has to face them. You have to live the life you were born to live.
be happy bigbutt, coz you'll see my vavavoom face this saturday =D
ang labo nga niya..nakakainis..hay nako life..thanks jenny..alam kong nagkakaintindihan tayo sa mga ganito..dba??? hehe.. thanks talaga..=)
ReplyDeletesana nga..super sana nga maging maayos yung college life ko..ill really give my best para makita nila na im not wasting any centavo..thanks a lot ange..*hug*
ReplyDeletehay nako..isa pa yan..i also feel guilty dahil sa new phone at sa celeb ko..but then, hindi ko naman sila pinilit para sa mga yun..sila ang nag plan at sila ang bumili nung phone..but still..arghhh..owel..wala nako magagawa..thanks sabby wabby..ill see you guys tom..=)
ReplyDeleteitatry ko..baka nga..salamat..
ReplyDeletehoy, matuto ka na nga magbike..at anong gagawin nyo sakin sa sabado?? pano nyo ko paliligayahin? yack, sounds wrong..hehe..=))
TAMA KA!!! DAPAT WALA NA NGANG PERA SA MUNDO!!!
ok lang na nasayo yung book..mahal ko yung book pero it kinda makes me sad din pag nakikita ko yun so ok lang na sayo muna basta alagaan mo..
thanks nini..salamat talaga..*hug u back* hehe..=)
hay nako ria..its hard not to be sad..pero sobrang salamat sa lahat..salamat talaga na you're always here to help..love you ria..=)
ReplyDeletelari!!! thank you talaga..you always make me laugh..
ReplyDeletesalamat sa lahat ng pagkakalog mo..sobrang it helps a lot (sobra na nga, a lot pa) =))tsaka salamat sa mga comforting words and advice..ang deep mo talaga mag english..d ko kaya..nanonosebleed ako..ahaha..
sobrang thank you thank you..il see you tom? hehe..babush..=)
u know naman im always here for you..pasasayahin kita. :) gsto mo kausapin natin si *toot* u know who..haha! pasasayahin ka nun sa kakatawa..haha! love you tin! :)
ReplyDeletehahaha opo opo kaya nga bibisita sa iyong bahay every week eh para matuto na hahaha
ReplyDeleteumm basta! kami na bahala dun! basta andun si lari liligaya ka na =))
ahhh onga pala :) hihi yiheee magkikita na ulit tayo bukas! weee! fun fun fun! :D wala lang.
ang panget talaga eh. LILIGAYA KA =))
ReplyDeletei love you tin tin!!!!!!!
>:D< aww tin ngayon ko lang to nabasa.... condolence...... magenjoy ka nalang muna dyan ngayon sa party ni sab, magpray ka lang palagi...everything will be ok :) mwah!
ReplyDeletethanks eunice..miss na kita..
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