okay. i just want to release some things..i cant cry it all out coz my parents aren't used to see me crying and im sure that they'd be curious when they see me sad and crying here at home..tuwing gabi ko lang naiiiyak lahat toh pero hindi parin sobra kasi nga baka mahuli nila ako..so i decided to make this blog kahit na medyo nahihiya talaga ako maglabas pero ito nalang talaga ung naisip ko para atleast, marelease ko yung mga problema..
so first..super disappointed ako sa sarili ko..it was my chance to be able to help my parents sa financial problems..pero yun nga, hindi ako nakapasa sa UPm..now they're enrolling me to DLSU kung saan napakamahal ng tuition..kung pinasa ko lang sana yung sa UP, edi wala nang problem financially..sobrang nahihirapan na dad ko magproduce ng money tapos first week of May ang enrollment ko, tapos brother ko naman enrollment sa may20 sa CSB..about 100,000++ na agad yun in one month palang tapos baon pa namin..nakakainis..hindi ko alam kung pano makakatulong..
second, nagkasakit yung tita ko..their family isnt that wealthy so they're getting help from relatives..my other tita who stays with my sick tita called the house about a week ago..yun nga, they're asking some help from us..my dad just told them na we cant give much but of course, we will give kung ano yung makakayanan namin..nagulat nalang ako nung parang nag iba na yung face ng dad ko..yun pala my tita got mad at him, bakit daw hindi namin magawang tumulong..tumulong naman kami ah..bat ganun? bat galit parin sila? tsaka kami din naman hindi na namin alam kung saan kukuha ng gagastusin araw araw..hindi maganda takbo ng negosyo namin..namomroblema na nga kami financially, nagkasamaan pa ng loob dad ko at tita ko..nakakainis lang na lahat lahat ng pinagmumulan ng problema ay pera..ang pangit lang tignan na yun yung sumisira sa mga relationships..
third, my lolo (tito of my dad) just died..i dont know how to react..
burial is on saturday but my dad still wants me to join sab's celebration..so yun, i'll be with my friends on saturday and sunday..i hope that id be able to enjoy those 2days..kahit 2 days lang away from all of these problems..
i just dont know why all of these things are happening to my family..hindi ko alam kung pano ihandle lahat..parang ayoko na mag college..parang ayoko na gumastos para sa kahit ano..its so hard for me to accept everything..i dont know what to do..i dont know how to act..arghhh..
i just hope that things will be better right away..sana masolve na lahat ng dapat isolve..
please pray for me and for my family..it would be of great help..ssshhhhh nalang about this ok??? thanks..
i miss all of my friends..what a summer..=(
